Sep 5 2013

Chasteness

chaste

adj. chast·er, chast·est

2. Morally pure in thought or conduct; decent and modest.
3. Pure or simple in design or style; austere.

[Middle English, from Old French, from Latin castus; see kes- in Indo-European roots.]

chaste’ly adv.
chaste’ness n.

The only thing you need to do is be here and now.

With that said, nothing can go wrong. Still, I feel no physical change. History has and is still being written continually.I often wonder why. Why, why and why…

So stop wondering, I say.
Stop being not here and now.
Start realizing.
And start breathing again.

It really is just that simple.

But remember,
Looks can be decieving.


Aug 18 2013

Forbearing

Adjective

forbearing (comparative more forbearing, superlative most forbearing)

  1. Characterized by patience and indulgence; long-suffering: as, a forbearing temper.

 

Is it only my lack of patience that I should worry about? Or is it something else?

I almost laugh at the thought of it; being bested by an infant.
The perspective remains an interesting point.

I’ve always detested the idea of throwing myself into something so.. Dominating. But here I am. Unable to gather my thoughts and unable to grasp the reality that is at hand, meanwhile purely loving the situation and admiring the energy my partner of life shows and gives to her surroundings.
“Life is pain”, the Buddha said. “Life is suffering”.
Let us not forget these easy things. Remind them of your true self, they will.

So now it ends; The agreement. The mass driver. The suffering. The ponder. The insights. The fixation. The love. The monstrosity. The cage. The Freedom. The engagement. The peacefulness. The wartorned ideologies. The rampage. The everlasting bliss. The last breath…. And then it starts, again.


Jun 9 2013

Tomorrow’s Harvest

Boards of Canada – Reach for the Dead


Jun 2 2013

Triumvirate

Why do I find myself uncomfortable in the digital presence of my kindred?
Facebook, and any other social media that tries to create an image of ourselves, where we can represent who we are, is meaning so much for humans these days. At the same time, it creates a very special room inside us, for the demon of self-hatred. And through him, we are killing ourselves, inside out.

The lack of comfort reaches it’s peak when I can’t manage to understand or comprehend the notions or actual ideas of life, that people want to portray. This creates a vacant spot in my mind.
A place where no logic is allowed. A place where one can destroy them all. A place, a kingdom, where insanity, madness and craziness rules as a triumvirate.

Why did YOU let you guard down for this? Why do WE accept this sovereign with open arms? Why do I keep letting it happen?

By definition, and by initiative, I hereby renounce my heritage to mankind. As I’ve done, a trillion times before…

“One person’s craziness is another person’s reality.” 
― Tim Burton


Mar 7 2013

L – T – T

SPEECHLESS TALK. CAPTIAL TOWN. RODENT ROUGHTALKS AND BACKGAMMON LAUGHTER

“While there is no resemblence to idiocracy in the human condition, there is no evidence of the contrary.”

LIMITLESS PASSION. LOVELESS LINGUINES. A HOUSEMOUSE IN THE DARK. LEFTOVERS FOR THE MACHINE.

“Tinkering low-lives of truths and basic standings. Believing their posture to be right and faithful… Let them burn in ashes till kingdom come.”

STANFORD UNIVERSITY SINGS. LAWNMOVER IN THE HORIZON. RASPBERRY HEARTACHE. HIGH TIMES NEWSDATER.

“Roger that. Exterminate and deprive. Wipe them out. All of them.”

FASHION. ROBOT ROCKET. POKÉBALL HAIRDRYER. LINGERING PAIN OF UNUSED NOODLES.

“What did you say?”

MANICAL LOVERS. COUGH OF SINKNESS. SERENTIY THROUGH THE EYE OF THE MANIAC.

“I just thought we were off to save the world.”


Feb 9 2013

Counter Strike

Back and forth.

Up and down.

Slow and fast.

Big and small.

Jin and yang.

Minor and major.

Happy and depressed.

Fire and ice.

Chaos and peace.

Rage and love.

Fat and thin.

Intelligent and dumb.

Ambitious and slack.

 

Balance within the unbalanced.


Jan 29 2013

de·liv·er·ance

Noun
  1. The action of being rescued or set free: “prayers for deliverance”.
  2. A formal or authoritative utterance.
Synonyms
release – rescue – liberation – riddance – relief

 

Discipline through structure. Chinese body art, literally. My days are dominated by it.
Endless possibilities within my grasp. An oasis extracted from our dreams in the palm of my hand.

Yet, I do not take it. I cannot grasp it.The abstract essence of life never takes it’s eyes of me. There is no wonder I can not concentrate.

I just… lose it.

Shall I simply accept it?

Acceptance of what exactly? Acceptance of my own illusionary idea of self-reliance? Acceptance of my misjudged way of life? Acceptance that we are all one and there’s no such thing as death? I could laugh myself to death.

A lunatic’s laugh. Deliverance through madness. Insanity incarnate.
In the wake of an anger that I cannot control.
Oh, God, is this thine path?


Jan 22 2013

Duality

In all the things that feels right, there is the source of wrongness. A thought of an outsider, the chosen one, the ugly duckling, the unique cell, the immortal cancer.

Given energy, it grows.
Giving it meaning, makes it last.

I find myself trembling in my own dellusions. A world where happiness can be found, where non really are. A place where I create my own wellbeing, despite anyone else’s effort or influence

A duality finds peace here. A mixture of feelings and choices. A positive and a negative magnate. The beauty and the beast. The rising, and the fallen. The ego and the nothingness.

Mask

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