• “All that we are arises with our thoughts. The mind is everything; With our thoughts we make the world / create our reality. If the mind is clear, what ever we do or say the mind will bring happiness that will follow you like your shadow.”

• “All that we are arises with our thoughts. The mind is everything; With our thoughts we make the world / create our reality. If the mind is polluted, what ever we do or say leads to suffering which will follow you as a cart trails a horse.”

“chos rnams yid kyi rang bzhin te yid ni gtso zhing sngon la ‘gro”

Look at oneself in the mirror and dare to look back with all the heart.

Mesmerizing memories to a distant backpack.

Futile thoughts of control ends in laughter.

Winning the day when we actually care.

Look at thy self in the mirror and dare to measure your karma.

I sit now and write you this letter
For I feel I deserved better
Is it that you couldn’t face the day
Is that why you throwed our life away

Our life had just begun
We were having so much fun
I told you I would never desert you
I told you I would not lie
All I asked is that you gave my love a real try

Curator now of broken hearts
Guardian of hopes lacking smarts
True lies sought for broken alibis
Pondered efforts the blind child cries

Sit now and try to read
In soil of love planted I the seed
Hollowed hearts now will bleed
Soul of a child no more I will feed
Words spoken now I heed
Blind leading the blind I will not lead
Sacrificed the day for all good deeds
lucid nights on waited needs

Weep no more my willow tree
Reckless decision made for you and thee
For you, all was not as it seemed
So goodbye to you the summer I had dreamed

Winter approaches with hurricanes thrust
Season gone without acquiring trust
Autumn looms with a chilling touch
Romance fades questioned too much

I will never know what I did wrong
All I did was sing you a love song

Could it be that I wasted the day
Did I throw my love away
A rift in time or a dimple
For now it all seems so simple

A way station.
The train that leads me to you is only on one side.
The other side has a train that leads me to a galaxy far, far away.

I stand waiting… For what? Another period of life that will lead up to the same way station again, and again, and again…?
I would do that. If you gave me the sign. A sign that you would stay strong in the constant change of emotion, stay vigilant in your pursuit of creating a family with me and our daughter. I would stay.
Cause we are changing with everything within and around us. The currents of change may take us apart for periods of time, rendering us being together with only a small grip, but cannot seperate us without one of us letting go.

I told you once that I made up my mind.
How do you want to live your life? With whom will you find the comfort of love? How do you want to see our daughter grow up?